“Body acceptance means, as much as possible, approving of and loving your body, despite its “imperfections”, real or perceived. That means accepting that your body is fatter than some others, or thinner than some others, that your eyes are a little crooked, that you have a disability that makes walking difficult, that you have health concerns that you have to deal with — but that all of that doesn’t mean that you need to be ashamed of your body or try to change it. Body acceptance allows for the fact that there is a diversity of bodies in the world, and that there’s no wrong way to have one.”
― Golda Poretsky

I thought I would write a post about why I have decided to stop doing my fitness challenge and basically the reason is I don’t want to! I am currently struggling with a lot of aspects in my life, not struggling in a bad way but more adjusting to my life now and doing the fitness challenge was adding extra stress to my life. I am finding the changes in my body difficult to deal with and want to get my head around that aspect of myself on my own in private. I have a lot of clothes that fitted me last year and don’t this year I have gained a dress size or two and although I feel comfortable with the extra weight and enjoying having boobs and hips there are times when I catch a glimpse of myself and it upsets me. I am feeling torn about these feelings and trying to give myself lots of self love without punishment, which after years of self hate is a big step for me.

Also my job has changed in a big way I have gone from 18 hour work days to 8 hour work days which may seem like a good thing which it is but it does take an adjustment. All the things I was working as a distraction from, now have to be addressed and dealt with. It feels like I am building my life all over again, I am trying to create a routine for myself that captures all the things I love and what I am trying to achieve.

I am not turning my back on healthy eating or fitness I am just stopping writing about it for a while at least, while I get into new classes, while I figure out an eating plan and while I figure out where it fits in my new life. I have created a separate Instagram account Emmas_happy_healthy_world

I have no idea how often I will post or exactly what the content will be, but I want it to be something that is positive, somewhere honest and somewhere for me and every other person that is struggling with their fitness. I will be sharing my struggles and probably my cellulite!

I will check back in with my fitness on here in a few weeks but for now, that will be it!! For now, I am going to enjoy my changing body and look after my mental health!! Which means no talking about how much exercise I am or not doing. No counting calories, I am just going to enjoy my body and see where that takes me!!