“Keep looking up! I learn from the past, dream about the future and look up. There’s nothing like a beautiful sunset to end a healthy day”. Rachel Boston

Day 50

Me and my beautiful friend Sam went and watched Mamma Mia (sorry about the awful picture but it is what it is!) one evening a couple of weeks ago and by the end of the film I were emotional messes! Clearly, we shouldn’t be allowed out in public together, who the hell cries at Mamma Mia, I wouldn’t have minded so much if they were tears to reflect how god damn awful the movie was. Or even tears for all the Linda’s who decided to clap at the end of the film!! On the upside, it was just so nice to go to the cinema and do nothing, as much as I bloody love this challenge and I do, it gets exhausting! We had a little gossip, bigged each other up and ate our body weight in pick n mix! So all in all a good night!

Day 51

“For the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: ‘If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?’ And whenever the answer has been ‘No’ for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.” Steve Jobs

For day 51 I went and watched the sunset in West Kirby and had some much needed me time! For at least the last 18 months there has been a big change in my life monthly to the point that now any change I encounter doesn’t even make me miss a step! I am not even sure if this is a good thing or not, how much change is normal?! So on evenings when I can make time stand still even for an hour I make the most of it.

“A man who dares to waste one hour of time has not discovered the value of life.”
― Charles Darwin, The Life & Letters of Charles Darwin

Just recently I have been remembering a conversation I had in December where I reflected on the changes, ups and downs of that year and I declared that “there were to be no changes in 2018” and in that moment I would have been happy for time to stand still but I would not have been happy for no changes, in fact I wouldn’t have been happy with time standing still for to long either. The truth was even when I made that statement I knew changes needed to happen I just didn’t know the changes that eventually happened would be the ones that did.

So with very little notice, I changed my sails and the direction my life was to take! Isn’t crazy to think that single decisions have the power to change your whole life, if I could go back to that day in December I would stand up and start the changes that very second because what has happened since has changed me in ways that can never be reversed nor would I want them to be. My dad often asks me “why can’t you just be happy with what you have?” and I always reply with “if I can be this happy watching the sunset from my window, imagine how happy I could be watching the sunset from different positions”. Change is uncomfortable but I promise its worth it!

I don’t want winter to come yet, I don’t want to miss sunsets and evening strolls along the beach. But since it is getting darker earlier and earlier I plan on spending as many evenings watching as many sunsets as possible. I am not mentally prepared for this to be over just yet!

“Never waste any amount of time doing anything important when there is a sunset outside that you should be sitting under!”
― C. JoyBell C.